when i’m in my right mind, and believe it or not i am most of the time, it seems as if i am very aware of everything around me.

that could be interpreted to be a good thing or a bad thing… i believe its interesting to say the least. some people believe that you don’t have to constantly be aware of whats being said or done by others because its living in fear or being paranoid.. that you should just forget the “what ifs,” live in the moment and do your best because, well, that’s all you can do.

while that is true to an extent, i believe you should be guarded and pay close attention to your surroundings…. because other people’s thoughts and actions can slowly start to shape your own. if you think about it, a lot of people are driven by fear. fear of failure, fear of loss, fear of death.. rejection… all things negative under the sun.. and they project that (sometimes subconsciously) by their thoughts and actions.

maybe doing your best means having the ability to block out or shut down any triggers that can cause negative thoughts and feelings, which lead to negative actions toward yourself and others. maybe it means choosing to live the life you are purposed to live and making each day count. maybe it means making yourself better in order to make the world better.

…from a mental standpoint, maybe its living in the hope that with time, patience, care, and practice, you can have control over your anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, etc.

its NOT living in fear and moving forward, knowing with faith and confidence that it will get better and the only way you can do that is if you stay tuned, stick around, and don’t give up.