I’ve finally had enough of you bullying me… bringing me down… abusing me and leading me to abuse myself… telling me I won’t amount to anything and that no one will ever love me. I’m tired of over-thinking everything and taking others’ actions personally. I’m done with thinking that I’m not good enough or pretty enough; and that I have no purpose on this earth.
For years I have allowed you to shape who I am, dictate how I feel about myself, and affect how I treat others.
So I’m ending my life as I know it…
Better yet, I’m ending my life with YOU as I know it.
I’m using my voice to cry out for help when I feel helpless because I know there is someone out there who cares for me and sees my worth. I’m walking away from the pain and hurt; using the power that I’ve always had to take back my mind, my heart, my thoughts, and my will… I am putting myself first.
I’m choosing to live; getting off the road of death to embrace the journey of life and healing. Choosing to learn healthy ways to express my valid thoughts and feelings. No matter how high the stakes; no matter how long it takes. I know the hope I have will get me through and I WILL live without you… that I will experience true freedom.
Goodbye suicide; I am severing all ties. If you come knocking on the door of my mind again I won’t answer; I am taking this leap of faith, knowing hope will catch me when I fall.
I encourage all of you who are struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, and other mental health issues to seek help here: http://yourenotfinished.com/get-help/ and start to take your power back by actively separating from anything or anyone that may cause you to embrace thoughts of death, whether that means writing a letter like this one, seeking therapy, talking it out with friends and family, WHATEVER IT TAKES!
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You are so loved, survivors! Stay strong!
Til next time.